Thinking

Today started the official packing up the baby stuff I have. I decided that there was real no reason to keep it around anymore, and waste very much needed storage space. A friend of mine is pregnant, and I'll be giving her as much of it as I can, since she wont know the gender until birth I'm trying to get the most of boy-girl stuff that I can find in all my bags.

I'm not going to lie it's kind of sad to be packing up all the little tiny newborn clothes. Brings me back to when my son was that small. Then I start thinking that I will probably never hold another baby that small that is my own.

I don't understand why I am having such a difficult time tonight. We have been distracted with getting ready for the upcoming rabbit show season that I have had very little time to think, but tonight bam the depression is back in full force.

I really should not complain, and I feel almost selfish doing it. I was able to bring one beautiful little boy in this world and others are not even able to have one.

I will say I do feel rather good that I am able to help a friend out. So at least I know I'm not completely selfish.

I think maybe I should really throw myself into excersising, and working on my weight loss goal. I'd like to be back at 140 which was my weight three years ago, but i would really like to be 130 if i could get to that. I think instead of concentrating on sad things, i should put myself first for once, and concentrate on my health/.

A ehh mommy (Jenna)

Another Hobby

So yes I'm bringing in another hobby, probably have to many right now but I needed another stress reliever and since show season for my rabbits has not started yet, I need something to do other then work, being a mother and a wife.

I used to scarp book all the time, picked it up my 8th grade year in school and loved it. I have tons of books of things I did, and I think it's a great way to look back on the past. I for some reason stopped about three years ago, and still had my box full of scarp booking supply's and un used books. Pulled that out and did a couple pages. I don't have as nearly as much as I used to, so I think when I get some extra cash I'll go to my local hobby lobby and purchase a ton of stuff.

So far I read, have rabbits, play sims, and scrap book for all my hobby's. Not to many I guess, but enough to keep me busy when I have some me time. Which with how much is going on in my life, I appreciate the hour I get for myself everyday.

Here are just a few pages i did, not great but a start. So out of practice, but I have a ton of pictures I have that i want to put together. I want to start one for my son, two years and on. Last time I actually put together a photo book for him was newborn to a year. He three now so I'm way behind.

With love

A busy body mother (jenna)